Tired.

im so pissed off, at him.. at myself. how did i even let this happen? Its like i KNEW this was going to happen.. but i convinced myself that it wasnt going to. And what fucking happend yesterday? yeah, IM FUCKING SICK OKAY, DO YOU SERIOUSLY EXPECT ME TO BE ALL HAPPY AND JOLLY? fuck, plus i havent even talked to him in three days, HOW CAN YOU SAY THINGS ARE DIFFERENT WHEN WE TALK? seriously you're a fucking idiot and your excuses are lame as fuck. Just because you're working now you think the whole world is gonna change. BUDDY you worked last year and everything was fine. DID I EVER LEAVE YOU WHEN THINGS WERE ROUGH? NO. I ALWAYS STICKED WITH YOU THROUGH WHATEVER. and now? things arent even rough and you're dipping. well you know what, have a nice fucking trip dude. And when you come back, when you start to miss me, when you start to wonder where i went. Just remember that you were the one who did this. You fucked up this time. We fixed it, & It WAS good. But YOU fucked up. So you can blame yourself for this loss. I seriously dont fucking give a fuck anymore. Im so tired of trying to mend all the broken thigs in our relationship. Im fucking tired of getting cut everytime by them. Im tired. So later.