my boring life

OH EM GEE.. i cannot believe that jillian picked ed! THIS SEASON WAS SO INTENSE.. but last season on the bachelor was way more intense than this. okay well.. ed is hairy... but other than that he is sorta kinda cute. AND REID CAME BACK OMG KDSJFLKDSJF :( HE WAS THE CUTEST OH EM GEE FOREAL! okay well yeah that made my day.. & after that dating in the dark came on! it was " wicked cool ". SO YEP today i went to my sisters house anddd pretty much did nothing as usual. im suppose to be m.i.a .. WHICH I AM BTW hehe sorta... but not from blogspot... i stopped using facebook & msn.. only when i need people. Becuase you know.. it only reminds me of you know who and nope! dont need that in my life right now! today was pretty good without him :) and im happy. tmr i was aposta go to wonderland but yeah its post poned for another day.. which im not gonna say becuase i know i have some stalkers haha. oh yeah i was really sick through out the weekend.. BUT IT WAS A LIVE WEEKEND REGARDLESS! i guess thats all i have to say. ill update ya when shit gets interesting in my life:) byeee nerds, losers, geeks, jocks, beautifuls, & who ever else reads this (L)

Tired.

im so pissed off, at him.. at myself. how did i even let this happen? Its like i KNEW this was going to happen.. but i convinced myself that it wasnt going to. And what fucking happend yesterday? yeah, IM FUCKING SICK OKAY, DO YOU SERIOUSLY EXPECT ME TO BE ALL HAPPY AND JOLLY? fuck, plus i havent even talked to him in three days, HOW CAN YOU SAY THINGS ARE DIFFERENT WHEN WE TALK? seriously you're a fucking idiot and your excuses are lame as fuck. Just because you're working now you think the whole world is gonna change. BUDDY you worked last year and everything was fine. DID I EVER LEAVE YOU WHEN THINGS WERE ROUGH? NO. I ALWAYS STICKED WITH YOU THROUGH WHATEVER. and now? things arent even rough and you're dipping. well you know what, have a nice fucking trip dude. And when you come back, when you start to miss me, when you start to wonder where i went. Just remember that you were the one who did this. You fucked up this time. We fixed it, & It WAS good. But YOU fucked up. So you can blame yourself for this loss. I seriously dont fucking give a fuck anymore. Im so tired of trying to mend all the broken thigs in our relationship. Im fucking tired of getting cut everytime by them. Im tired. So later.

Its been so long!

man, its really been a while. at first i was so hyped up about this whole blog shit but then it just got boring and i got lazy. well my life has been awesome.. been going out a lot, parties, chilling and what not. summer has only begun! but just the thought of school coming makes me freak. really gotta get my head in the books this year, no horsing around! im so mad because people are like doubting me, well not really doubting but like saying " oh you're diet isnt working " and shit telling me what to do with MY diet like dude go live your own life and do your own diet dont tell me what to do stfu. like shit, my diet is ACTUALLY WORKING.. i fit into some pants that didnt fit before. which is soooooooo awesome :) tmr im going to buy a bathing suit.. i like this one piece one its so nice, but its not like i have the body to rock it anyway. NOT YET, i repeat.. yet:) hehe. anyway.. what else? hmm.. oh yeah the wedding omg the dude i wanted to see really badly left early.. what a bummer geez:@ i dont think ill be seeing him anytime soon but oh well. i just watched half of hangover, AGAIN until my mom came downstairs and it was the part where her boob was out breast feeding the baby. so yeah i had to stop it, but now im not in the mood to watch anything. i guess thats itttttttt. bye stalkers.